In December, I blogged about three things: Amelia, the end of my 30 for 30, and how grumpy or stressed out or frustrated I was with x, y, and/or z. The first two can’t be helped, of course, but the third? I’m not okay with that. I don’t want to miss out on feeling the Christmas spirit, or ruin a vacation, or put off playing with my baby because I’m obsessing over minutiae and coming up with endless complaints. I don’t want to be that kind of girl.
But when I got to thinking about what the word of 2012 should be (see here, here, and here if you’re unfamiliar with the word-of-the-year type resolutions I’ve started making) I kept remembering all the stuff that is already on the agenda. At least three trips. Two family reunions. Our goal to buy a house. The more I thought about it, the more I kept focusing on what I don’t want to be this year. Overwhelmed. Irritable. Exhausted. Needy. Judgmental. Anxious. Nit-picky. Lazy. Worried. Hungry. Pretty much all the things I’ve been feeling lately, despite my strong desire to feel otherwise.
I started trying to come up with antonyms for some of these words. Peaceful. Content. Generous. Bold. Confident. Motivated. They’re all good words but none of them was quite what I was looking for.
And then Isaiah popped into my head. Bless. He always knows just what to say to lift my spirits.
“Wherefore,” he asked me, “do ye spend money for that which is not bread? and your labour for that which satisfieth not? hearken diligently unto me, and eat ye that which is good, and let your soul delight itself in fatness.” (emphasis mine)
My life is full of fatness. A wonderful husband. A darling daughter. A large and loving extended family. Incredible friends. Delicious food. A comfortable home. Lovely possessions. Fun adventures to look forward to. The true and everlasting gospel of Jesus Christ. I have so so much. Why do I so often forget this and waste my time on “that which satisfieth not?”
Well, no more. This year I’m going to follow Isaiah’s counsel. Seek out experiences that will enrich my life. Surround myself with kind, inspiring, hilarious people. Find precious jewels of truth in the scriptures. Eat tasty things until I’m full to bursting. Mostly just enjoy the many blessings I’ve been given and be grateful for the lessons I’m learning as I go.
I’m going to delight in fatness.
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